Well, I am officially done actively participating in dating. By that I mean, overtly putting myself out there. If someone wants to ask me out, sure. Otherwise, fuck that noise.
D turned out to be a mental case and a half. I don't say that lightly as I believe we are all mental in our own special ways. This one was fucked up, one step away from Thorazine & a jacket with shiny buckles mental. Oh and a liar. That's OK though, better to find out early than invest time I don't have in the first place & find out later.
I don't want to be alone, but I don't want someone up my ass 24/7. You'd be surprised how difficult that is to find. Really.
The trip to my favorite place was a smashing success. Met a shit ton of new people, caught up with someone I hadn't seen in almost 20 years, got to have lunch both days with a dear friend AND I had dinner with Jeb*. Next trip out is already planned. Maj*, the girl I do these road trips with has never been to Disneyland. That has to change. We also decided we are going to celebrate our half birthdays this year. Technically that would be in March, but we are pushing it back to April. Four days in my favorite place with some of my favorite people? Hell fucking yes!
That trip also made me realize how much I miss music promotions/marketing. One of the new individuals I met & I had a discussion about the use of social media in marketing. Initially he was against having "personal" accounts, but by the time I was finished with him he completely understood my point of view. If he doesn't already he will soon have "personal" accounts that will mainly be band promotion tools as well as for personal appearances with the lightest sprinkling of "personal" news. That is one thing I am really good at & often wonder why I never really explored that avenue more.
Making that trip also reiterated that I belong there. It really is like home. I have to make this happen & I will. Have you ever been some place & it felt like you belonged there? That is this place for me. I know no one other than Jeb & my other friend & I could care less. It is almost like I want to be unknown. I want to be anonymous. At the same time it still really scares the piss out of me. All the scenarios have been run through from fairy tale to zombie apocalypse. Even in apocalypse mode I still want to be there. It shall be done.
*Maj & Jeb are not their real names Einstein. No, you don't need to know them. Fuck off.