I haven't been in much of a mood to actually *do* anything as of late. I have lots of ideas about things to do, I just don't care to do any of them. Visions of the future with a monster lack of motivation. Go figure.
My diet was derailed. I would like to say that someone held me down and gave me the choice of my life or chocolate cupcake consumption, however, that just isn't the case. When I got sick in December I just got lazy. Period. I haven't even been to the gym since then. On the upside, I'm still doing Pilates (the Cadillac is not my friend. Never. Ever.) twice a week and as of Tuesday I had only gained a grand total of three pounds. As of this morning I am only one pound above my lowest weight. Hooray! Tomorrow I shall return to the gym. I have some super secret plans for the beginning of May and must get my ass in gear last week.
Honestly I think my lack of motivation has been directly tied to my shitty eating. Of course, I have absolutely no one to blame other than myself. That's just the way it is. There are plenty of other things going on in my life that I can blame other people for though. I am sincerely hoping that the change in diet will support me actually getting off my ass and getting something done. You care, I know.
I have noticed that since I have started eating better I have commenced dreaming again with great detail. This can be good or it can be bad. Lately, it hasn't necessarily been good, but I'll take it over the nightmares. For the past two weeks my nocturnal mind romps have been erotic in nature and not necessarily explicit. There are two different individuals that are the main focus and never at the same time. These episodes are fairly frequent and are starting to disturb me slightly. Probably because one of the individuals involved kinda gives me the creeps. (And no Ang, it isn't everyone's favorite serial killing lab rat.)
If only there were a way to channel that energy into something else. Something more useful. Something creative.
March 14, 2009 01:07 PM PDT
I have already given my opinions as to the subject of the dreams. You are, after all, a fan of mythology.
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